Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Long since I blogged...
Went to Vivo and Sentosa on Monday for a walk since I haven't been there for long..and found it is still a place I like best--quiet and spacious. Sat at the wooden floor at vivo, and thought through many things while the cruises went about their daily journeys. Indeed, I haven't really completed much these half a year. A levels are drawing near and its back to the routine to studying hard like in Sec 4. But this time its different, coz I've been lazing around for two years and its eally hard to get back on track, really hard, but nonetheless, its somethings that has to be done, no matter what.
I must have been through quite a noisy two years out in the city, coz it was really quiet and refreshing to be near the waters again. After so many years, my greatest likes are still the same things, that sounds good.
Life- I remember this sentence from a movie I watched some days ago: As you get older, life starts to take things away from you, while when you're young, it gives you things. True indeed, but perhaps we are facing all these simultaneously. We are gettings things and having things taken away from us at the same time. We lose time, interests, passion, people, and we get experience, new people, lessons, in life. I don't know how many things I've lost since entering JC, but its uncountable-- I lost opportunities of going to the places I like, like beaches and islands, I lose contact with some friends, I lose the times when winning wasn't much a problem for me, I lose success, I lose interests in things I used to like, like painting and going on outings, when time and current peer pressure get the better of me. In return, I get things that I don't necessarily like- new friends, who sharpened my critical skills, lesser time, which indicates more productive time wasted, always eating out at food courts and never knowing how to enjoy good things in a while.....I just feel- detached. Detached from my real self, detached from life, detached from nostalgic memories, detached from many things that I always enjoyed and treasured.
Could I go back to the times when we actually spent time going down to art museums and exhibition for a day of involvement in complex culture, or to the times when I readily go to parks and museums just to enjoy the natural breeze and get away from buzzling life, or to the time when I feel I am the controller of time, work, person and many things around me? Do I really have to sleep so early these days, do I need to? Or is it just an excuse to get away from work that I desperately need to complete? I wanna ask myself a simple question: is this really the way you want to get along with life? Where is the real you?
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Went to Vivo and Sentosa on Monday for a walk since I haven't been there for long..and found it is still a place I like best--quiet and spacious. Sat at the wooden floor at vivo, and thought through many things while the cruises went about their daily journeys. Indeed, I haven't really completed much these half a year. A levels are drawing near and its back to the routine to studying hard like in Sec 4. But this time its different, coz I've been lazing around for two years and its eally hard to get back on track, really hard, but nonetheless, its somethings that has to be done, no matter what.
I must have been through quite a noisy two years out in the city, coz it was really quiet and refreshing to be near the waters again. After so many years, my greatest likes are still the same things, that sounds good.
Life- I remember this sentence from a movie I watched some days ago: As you get older, life starts to take things away from you, while when you're young, it gives you things. True indeed, but perhaps we are facing all these simultaneously. We are gettings things and having things taken away from us at the same time. We lose time, interests, passion, people, and we get experience, new people, lessons, in life. I don't know how many things I've lost since entering JC, but its uncountable-- I lost opportunities of going to the places I like, like beaches and islands, I lose contact with some friends, I lose the times when winning wasn't much a problem for me, I lose success, I lose interests in things I used to like, like painting and going on outings, when time and current peer pressure get the better of me. In return, I get things that I don't necessarily like- new friends, who sharpened my critical skills, lesser time, which indicates more productive time wasted, always eating out at food courts and never knowing how to enjoy good things in a while.....I just feel- detached. Detached from my real self, detached from life, detached from nostalgic memories, detached from many things that I always enjoyed and treasured.
Could I go back to the times when we actually spent time going down to art museums and exhibition for a day of involvement in complex culture, or to the times when I readily go to parks and museums just to enjoy the natural breeze and get away from buzzling life, or to the time when I feel I am the controller of time, work, person and many things around me? Do I really have to sleep so early these days, do I need to? Or is it just an excuse to get away from work that I desperately need to complete? I wanna ask myself a simple question: is this really the way you want to get along with life? Where is the real you?
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what we could have been, 10:37 AM.
